panic attack

Time runs behind me,
Encouraging me to keep going,
Stepping on my heels when I lag behind.
But everyday
It gets a little closer.
How little time we all have,
And how much of us time has.
Time is beginning to catch up with me,
I fear,
And I don't want to have to speed up
to stay ahead.
I want to slow down
Really smell every flower that i cross on my way.

But there is no bargaining with time.

Just as i think i'm slowing down,
I turn around to find a lifetime behind me
And the end in sight.

My feet struggle hopelessly against the Winds
that relentlessly push me forward.